Refection Pool

Why this? Why now?


“Why does the eye see a thing more clearly in dreams than the imagination when awake?”

~ Leonardo da Vinci

I woke up this morning fully inspired to write about one topic but at my fingers started typing, other ideas have decided to emerge. Time to do what we do best, deal with the hand that we have been dealt.

Next week, I will be completing my 42nd trip around the sun and just yesterday, I successfully passed my first ever test in Taekwondo. If you had asked me earlier this year or at any point in my life, I would have told you there is no way in hell I would even join such an exercise or discipline. I had a solid list of reasons ready and I will share some of these with you.

Reasons for why NOT to engage:

  • Confusing the sense of excitement for panic
  • But I am too old
  • My work life is too demanding
  • I barely have enough me time
  • I will lose my sense of freedom
  • I will lose my autonomy to do as I please
  • Really, what if I suck and the situation is completely hopeless

I chuckle and shake my head now as I read over this list that is so generic that it might as well be called – why not try to learn/master something new in life. Clearly, at some point of this internal dialog, I won the battle. It took a couple of counter questions “Why the sudden interest? Why now?”

That is when the gates of resistance morphed into the windows of opportunity.

Taekwondo classes weren’t easy at first. I need to rephrase this. None of the classes are easy but at some point, your self confidence blasts through the stratosphere and the rest is gravy from that point on.

Impressions of my first class:

  • I am going to die: time check reveals it is just 5 minutes into the warm up.
  • So my hand needs to move fluidly while my leg shifts: all this hand/foot coordination business; my brain is exploding. Remember, Meena you learned how to walk and took a lot of hand/foot coordination. You got this!
  • I do have autonomy and choice: I can chose to leave all of life’s distractions at the doorstep of the do-Jang and for one hour become one with an equally dedicated group of individuals.

Yes, my hands and feet do move almost non-stop it seems like through out the class. My mindset and my energy shifts as well. Despite my leaving life’s distractions at the front door, I will suddenly be gifted with an AHA! of insight and then I can’t resist the smile that spreads across my face.

I never expected that to have come from the simple commitment of showing up and following through by doing my best. Practice is a pathway to perfection and even though I am still early on that trailhead, the breadcrumbs I need to follow are there. For that one hour, simply being in the flow in order to become part of the harmony of the collective.

We laugh, we make mistakes, we laugh even more. We focus, we encourage, we support. It is truly a joy to see someone overcome their personally challenging techniques. Their victory becomes our victory. You then know, as part of this collective, only good will come.

I am not sure where you are at in your own personal dialog of why not. Remember the two counter questions at your disposal “Why this? Why now?” Leave me a note and let me know what new thing/activity/practice you have decided to take on.


Refection Pool

Finding Common Ground


No one is wise enough to understand the heart of another, but it is our duty in life to try.
~ Louise Erdrich

This week I have been reminded again that the kaleidoscope of life we live in is comprised of many hearts and so many of them are yearning for understanding or someone/anyone to simply relate to them.

Of course, depending on your life experience you may either be guarded or open as you interact with all these hearts that just want to be understood. Have you inquired within and figured out what message it is broadcasting to anyone and everyone at the same time?

I try to do that every once in a while; not as often as I should, probably. There is always insight that I gain about myself as I bring those subconscious yearnings to the forefront of my consciousness. Sometimes, those nuggets of A-HA make sense while others have appeared completely unrelated to the day to day minutiae of my life.

On my last self-inquiry exercise, I realized that I am so ready to be understanding of  just about anyone which some people seem to confuse for naivety. Then I had to sit with the emotions that surfaced around the word naive. What was hard to swallow was the connotative meaning that comes with it – emotional gullibility.

Compassion and understanding are two of my lifestyle choices. Like any choice, nothing is risk free. The best moments of my life were made possible due to my compassion and understanding. So have some of my worst.

To my fellow compassion crusaders, keep doing what you’re doing. Keep up your wonderful work, trust your instincts and no matter what, stay the course and spread more light into this world.

Found Gratitude · Impromptu Poetry · Refection Pool · Transformation

So, I Begin Again


Hello everyone,

Here we are in October of 2016 and I am kicking off a new blog. My intention is for this blog to be a reflection of who I am now – an amalgamation of many things and still very much a work in progress (both me and the blog!).

Some of you might have followed my work on and other poetry venues. ScatHer Light will be different. Yes, there will be poetry but a lot more of the this and that which seem to occupy my curiosity at any given point in time.

I am super excited about the promise that this blog will hold for me and you, as well, by extension.  I am glad I have a laptop of my own, again! Everyone else in the family has been squared away.

Life is a journey that we all take one day at a time despite my own personal desires to manipulate time. I would love to be able to slow down time here and make a moment last. I would also love to be able to speed up time to arrive at a much anticipated even. Sort of like how we walk . We mess around with our stride all the time – we lengthen it, shorten it, hurry it up, slow it down. Yet, there is permanence with the transience of time. There is a known comfort in waiting even when I find myself worried or pins & needles excited. There is an acceptance and a surrender. There is the reminder to myself to be present in the now and harvest the abundance that Life is offering me just beyond my finger tips.

So here I am at ScatHer Light sharing with you my world with a fresh heart and open mind.

She never fig-ured out
How fig and Newton came to be.

Perhaps, Sir Isaac visited Babylon
When joy struck him upon the head.

Fig-ments of her hyperactive imagination;
Sweet sticky goodness stuck between her teeth.